Jubilant

I do hope that my decision to invest in you one smart one.
I can only make the best out of you and nothing less.
Butterfly kisses, warm hugs,  fun dates are all I can remember.
And I hope we can take this home with us.
Hopefully forever.

=(

As i thought things were going great, they went downhill like anything. FML

I should stop jinxing myself.

Blessed New Year

I think this was by far the best and simplest new year celebration in the longest while. Family dinner and catching up with the besties xxx

2011

2011 has been more of a great year than a bad one. It has been a year of rediscovery, overwhelming and most importantly a year that i have ticked most of my milestones.

1. Moved on from my dramatic life and met a bunch of great and amazing people! =)
2. Seen more of Indo-Chine, be it by myself or not.
3. Passed 3 papers this year and hopefully one more to go
4. Got promoted
5. Finally went for Lasik Surgery
6. Signed my first S&P (and hopefully many more to come!)
7. Organised my first overseas charity trip and realizing that I took home more than what I gave
8. Did more and more charity
9. Went on a yacht party and masquerade party (just like gossip girl!)
10. Quit my job

There is one particular milestone that I have yet to tick off and if all prayers are answered, I do hope that even that will be ticked off and life is amazing =)

Here’s a toast and cheers to the exciting 2012, and I hope to have less drama, more chances and opportunities.

A to Z of Friendship

Amazing, Blessed, Caring, Dependable, Endearing, Fun, Great, Happy, Irresistible, Joyous, Keeps, Loving, Memories, Noble, Outstanding, Presence, Quaint, Righteous, Sparkly, Trustworthy, Understanding, Versatile, Wholesome, X, Yellow, Zest

Think a little and time to grow up

After what happened last night, this is a reminder to myself to stop doing what I’m doing because I cannot afford to so anymore.
I am no longer 18 and soon as I speak, with the new year embarking I shall make this my resolution – to stop doing it.
Although its addictive and fun but the momentarily happiness is not for longer than as you are enjoying it. And then it diminishes and evaporates into a history.

Truth

I was home in Ipoh for a week. This week, opened my eyes and probably changed my mind about a lot of things in life that I used to view differently and justify myself for. The week at home was rather, unusual – having the usual drama circling me wherever I go.

1. Renovation that turned into a waterfall flood.

Having lived in the same house for the past 21 years, instead of buying a new gated community and a hiked price, my parents decided to invest some of the money in a condo for me in KL and the remaining to our current home. A call for a huge, huge major renovation for 76, Ipoh Garden East – reroofing, repainting, retiling, extension and anything you can think of. Renovating in the midst of monsoon  is definitely not wise. Not only do the contractors have so little sunshine hours to do stuffs, when it pours, the roof leaks, your house gets flooded. True story. So i spent 4 hours one thunder-stormy-rainy evening scooping water our of my balcony adjacent to my room because the hole to the drain was clogged up with a pile of sand or cement (so my mother and I were both bathing in a rain shower literally). 45 minutes into religiously scooping water out of the balcony – I ran downstairs to turn off to gas only to find that the entire house has turned into a waterfall. Water was leaking from somewhere upstairs, creating a waterfall effect right down the stairs like a stream flooding the second hall by perhaps an inch. That’s when the actual action begins. The drama could be easily laughed off but because my bad-tempered dad had to scold and yell at everything and everybody, it caused tension in the house.

Lessons learnt:
a. Never renovate your house when people are living inside.
b. My parents are getting older by the day. And going home was indeed a good decision.
c. No point yelling over something that has happened that is nobody’s fault
d. Blessing in disguise that we found this out in the midst of the renovation and not after because rectification during is much easier than rectification after.

2. My cousin

It was pregnancy out of wedlock, mingled with the fact that it was an affair. The man is married, perhaps with children and disappeared from her life. Never visited, never cared. My soon-to-be-borned nephew will be fatherless.

Lessons learnt
a. Don’t jump into a relationship that quick and have well-protected sex.
b. As much as i want to get married and have a boyfriend, it all seemed too overwhelming knowing that fate will land us if the wrong choices were to be made.

3. Friendships

I used to be the kind of girl who would I say, collect friends. Have about 300000 friends and spend all my hours meeting them up and “catching” up. And then, blame it on myself or them when one or the other does not keep in touch.
Recently, my views changed. People move on with their lives. They grow up, they grow apart. Facebook and twitters are just ways others can stalk your life. Know about the happenings and on goings without the need to really ask you what is going on. Then, the talk continues. But how many of those talkabouts are real? Some friends are to keep, and those are the ones that will return your phone calls and reply your texts and asks you out for meals to catch up. And regardless how late it is, will speed to your house just to see you.

Lessons learnt:
a. Since the incident, I think I know the real definition of true friends and keep the rest at bay.
b. BFFs take time to emergency breaks in front of your house just to say hello, and wait for you to finish with your busy schedules and reply your texts regardless how busy they can be

I have been very very blessed to date. And I am counting on it. Life is a ball, it goes round and round, sometimes it rolls to a different corner, and a change happen but eventually it will continue rolling and that’s why we call it life.

Meeting you

I met a colleague – Mr Ong, during one of my training classes and then we became friends. Throughout the training week, our friendship blossomed from acquaintance to actual friendship, and then we started exchanging numbers, and then we start meeting up for dinners, lunched and a friendship was built.
One day, I invited him to an ICAEW networking event, in which he watched me exercise my social skills, going around speaking to absolutely anyone and everyone and I think I could have charmed him with my ability to wander around and just mingle when he was instead suffocated in his own tongue – the disability to speak smoothly because he claimed it was the result of his “Chinese” background and education.
We then toyed with the idea of him joining my CA programme and along the way, he told me something that touched my heart. “I’m born poor. I’m used to working hard.. There was never a moment I never worked hard. I strived for a living.. My parents had 6 children, and now its my responsibility to take care of them. I don’t think I can not work, or leave a job without a job..” And then he gestured the usual money sign.

The topic of security of a job and money, seemed to be an issue to him.. His diligence and determination is absolutely admirable and he made me realise how lucky I’ve been since the day I was born.

Managing my performance

I used to tell people, when you stop finding happiness at your work place and when you struggle and struggle, it is time to leave. And i’m an advocate of that belief and yet I am not sane enough to adhere to that.

Everyday I go to work, I stopped finding the joy and love and even the energy to do so. People watch you. Then, they judge and then the story goes on.

When will it ever stop? Only after you leave. Maybe even so, your history remains.

Sigh

I am really feeling down.

I heard news.

My friends are getting married, a couple and both are my friends.. and I haven’t been officially invited. Like, no news nothing and everyone that are acquaintances are invited through Facebook except me. Well maybe cause I don’t have one. But she has my email address right?

Sigh.

And then the glimmer of hope with this guy that I liked, and he is kinda getting serious with this girl. Busted.

There it goes. I think i’m done. =(