Wow, 3 months passed in a glimpse! Never had I imagined how happy I will be in Malaysia even after being here nearly three months! I’ve seen quite a bit of the world, although never quite enough and now I’ll be starting work next week. A whole new relocation to yet another country again.
I am not quite ready to leave. Feeling the feeds of comfort from home. And yet I’m excited not knowing what to expect from my future.
When you so much sat in a living room with a friend you claim to be “good” and it backfires to only realise that u exchanged as most as 10 sentences put together then you know where the friendship lies.
I really wished I did not come. Or at least I could disappear from here.
You know when I’m happy I don’t blog? I am really happy. Just blessed with the simplest and littlest things in life.
I’m happy =)
And I’d give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t want to miss you tonight
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
“Babe, please don’t leave. Babe, please don’t leave me. You can’t leave me. What am I gonna do? Babe, please don’t leave. please babe please”
“Babe, you’re NOT GOING ANYWHERE. You’re going home for 12 days. Packing 80 kilos of things to ship back is silly. So stop packing because you will be unpacking soon.”
“Time is slowly taking you away from me”
“Babe, please don’t leave…… you are not leaving.”
Hmph, I think I have been so happy living in my fantasy joyous world and mind provoking thoughts that I haven’t even had the chance to pen down memory lane…
1. Oasis was brilliant only separated from Hoi but it was okay. Resulting into walking back to town via Cheetham Hill and flagged a taxi down mid-way. Was covered in piss and beer LOL once in a lifetime experience!
2. Was out with the girls partying before Oasis and it clearly wasn’t something I enjoyed at all. Dread going out with Claire actually cause she stays in Venus which I absolutely hate.
3. Then pulled a sickie and got my US Visa (WAHOO!) =) Worth all the “sickie” as I got in and out of the embassy within 40 minutes of a genius record time!
4. Then busy busy busy… decided to pack up and go home within 6 weeks. Told Neil, he was more of a mess than I could ever imagine.
5. Packed Packed Packed.
6. Celebrated my birthday in style this year… with Rach, Tash, Rob, Ed, Zara, Vinny and Jan at Linen 235, then the Casino and some moolah dancing in Revolution! Loved it and merry it was.
7. Sat, went for lunch with Zara at Pitcher and Piano, walked down Deansgate with her, got some tapes for my boxes, shopped a little with her… detoured to pick Neil’s jacket up and off for the BBQ with the Malaysians! BBQ was awefuckingsome. A parade tour on the canal boat
8. Sat night, a memorable birthday night. Neil made the effort. came in green shirt, clad in his Armani suit pants (which I picked), a card and a bottle of wine. Sweet ey? Dinner booked for Ithica, posh and nice and hands in hands more drinks. Was an amazing amazing night!
Okay, i’m tired and cranky gonna sleep.
with a heartburn, deprive of sleep and depressed.
Then I had everything in the world to do from changing hotels, to changing appointment to booking train tickets etc. What a manic day!
Lucky day – managed to obtain an earlier appointment with the US Embassy, got my tickets, changed my hotel for Brazil, rang my mom, cried to her and got her to comfort me asking me to go home earlier than I should and then headed out for lunch – sunbathed and got every thing else sorted
And I am bloody knackered.
I have a lot in my mind that was repeating like a tape recorder – but I let it off my chest yesterday and I feel utterly better now. I will stop chasing it and stop thinking and let go.
Because letting go is the beauty of love.
Insomnia…
This is certainly NOT FUNNY especially when you need to work the next day!!!!! I went to bed at 1030 got up at 230 and now 430 and i cant sleep ARGH. Kust took some Clarityne in hopes to fall asleep again. I knew this was gonna happen. Can’t find my Nytol last night as I knew I needed them..
I am depressed. I am not happy and my mind is constantly running and thinking .. this has been going on for ages. Sleepless nights.
My mind is constantly working, worrying about unnecessary things, wishing for fairytale ending. I am pathetic and revolting and disgusting and I hate myself for this.
