milkyway

The cold damp streets of Manchester preluded with pools of water, filled with chavs, popularised by students is almost what i do not want anymore.

I visited a friend tonight – as he will be going back home for good and i tried attempted to spend time with him but my kind gesture was ignored otherwise. We went for a meal in which we scoffed our chicken down and adjourned home and known to all how much I cherish frienships, I decided to just hang around to say my farewells as I am pretty certain I will not see much of him anymore maybe even for the rest of my life. Much to prediction, only disappointment greeted me.

From that moment, i turned around and realised that indeed true friends are rare here. At least for me.

I was close from being in tears, water swell, heart crunching, mind boggling I was in the true world of loneliness.Where are they? Where should I be? From that moment, I almost have decided to just go home because I want to be with people that I can count on, people that I can just call for a chat – and I just want that feeling of happiness again.

I am drawn away from Neil – I feel it does not substantiate me – not emotionally – does he even know me?

Do i even know then?