I am really feeling down. I heard news. My friends are getting married, a couple and both are my friends.. and I haven’t been officially invited. Like, no news nothing and everyone that are acquaintances are invited through Facebook except me. Well maybe cause I don’t have one. But she has my email address right? [...]
Finally, hear me out
Life is quizzical. It screws you up when you least expect it and then it revolves 360 degree and gives you the best in life. Here I am, sat in my room, edging with the over-empowering wayward crisis – THE quarter life crisis, or maybe my Gemini mind is working too hard churning exorbitant imagination, retarding [...]
Don’t look back in anger.
Time and time again, I’ve never learn my lesson, but now i’ve learnt. Never to depend or call for anyone’s help. Because even the person you think you can depend on, disappoints you.
Tango in the past
The unhappiness inside me is not dwelt with quite right at the moment. I am bitter, upset and melancholic over things that I should not be at all. I have my focus – my two papers – Business Strategy and Financial Management. Crucial enough to pass in order to secure myself a closer pathway to [...]
Today at work.
Having sat here at work gave me the utmost doubt about my career; question prelude my pea brain, should I stay in Singapore or should I move back to Malaysia? Have I learnt enough about this cruel country? And how the people work here? Have I challenge myself far enough? Am I strecthing myself far [...]
The working day
Today, I cried at work. I didn’t want to; oppose to what Susan advised. And it felt good, letting the burden the sadness in me. Maybe afterall I need to learn how to contain myself. Working in Asia turned to be a real culture shock. I couldn’t adapt to the sensitivity, the conservatism, the not [...]
im feeling emotional, pointless and agitated.
i am super geram. a day i wanted to talk to Neil, he is not around. I don’t like it. I cannot get him on the phone or anywhere else. it’s annoying me!!!!
Living room
When you so much sat in a living room with a friend you claim to be “good” and it backfires to only realise that u exchanged as most as 10 sentences put together then you know where the friendship lies. I really wished I did not come. Or at least I could disappear from here.
ARGH!
I don’t understand why I have so much to complain and rant about life. Not to say I am not happy or fucking depress but sometimes those minority really irate me and agitate me so much until I bengang gila babi! Okay, so you are allowed to attend conferences – whereby you get to meet [...]
Written 10/01/2009 for N
Dear Neil, Sorry for the nasty Saturday that I may have caused you. I don’t think you understand, neither do I to be truthful. I try so hard to perfect our relationship – to make it flawless, to understand, to comprehend and to love. Only to find that maybe loving each other was a flaw [...]
